I wish that Malcolm X was my father

El Hajj Malik El Shabazz, Many know him as Malcolm X
But Oh how i yearn to know the man as Father
Not so that I could brag and say that “My father was a great Martyr”
or so that he could tell me the story of how glad he was that Allah blessed him with a son after his 3 magnificent daughters.
Or even the simple pleasure of taking on the family name of Shabazz
Because all I really want to do is be proud of the man I call father
You see, my biological father only gets gleamy eyed over his coke
and he has traded in these last 18 years with me for Womenfolk
Compared to Malcolm, the man is a joke
His visits in the last 10 years can be counted on one hand
The lack of dedication has caused the time in my dreamland to expand
Just recently, imaginary father and I took a pilgrimage back to the Holy Land
Where he gave me a huge hug and congratulated the boy who became a man
For that reason alone, selfishly every night I pray to Allah asking him to remove from me the DNA of Arthur Lee
And to put genes of Malcolm into my body.
Because I know that he would never cause pain to the spirit of mommy
And Denzel played Malcolm so well that whenever i Hear Sam Cooke’s “A Change Gonna Come” a tear comes to my eye
because it reminds me of the sorrowful day in which daddy died
But if it were up to me I would go back in time
and prevent daddy’s name from leaving lifes pocket
For when I saw death coming I would stop it
Save Malcolm’s life from being taken by the gun
Increasing my chances of becoming El-Hajj Malik El Shabazz’s son.

-Jules Ramzy